I feel your pain, buddy, and can definitely sympathize with what you're going through. I don't feel like much of a man most of the time either. I'm really glad you found this board. It's probably the only place you'll find people who really understand what you're going through. Just try to keep your chin up. At least this isn't a fatal disease and it shouldn't leave you impotent forever. I got over it once before and was virtually pain-free for years. It just takes a really long time to get better. Hang in there and let us know how you're doing....