Hi, im new here - so sorry to hear of your troubles. I am 21 & have just met my soulmate. I have alot to live for but...... I have had epidiymitus for four months now following an injusry to left testicle. pain was unbearable, was given 2 wks d,cycline & it cleared alot. week later came back so took some more , i was experiencing a pulling muscle feeling in my lower abdomen but that eased.....my ultrasound showed nothing. its been 3 wks now & i have felt pretty much this horrible discomfort, I dont know if its getting better or worse........ive been slipping in & out of depression.....I now have lost my hope from all the docs saying they cant really do much more, I now want to kill myself, (is this common?) - i dont want to leave my loved ones but i cant stay like this. I couldnt handle it being chronic - im just thinking about the best suicide methods and what to write in my notes......... im so scared, dont know what to do - .... please dont feel sorry for me , im just telling you how it is, thanks for reading, i kow what youve been thrugh.

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